100 Random THings about Me.

[tenbun_archive]

So, I think this is a cool idea, but it's not quite random b/c I've been wanting to do it for a week and have been putting it off. I never update this journal, so I don't think anyone will read this. I don't know if this is disappointing.

1. I am not a very random person
2. I try very hard to be, though
3. I think I get stuck in personality roles
4. I'd rather be happy than safe
5. I tend to pick 'safe' anyway
6. Sometimes I want some huge crazy shit to happen in my life so it will become interesting
7. I like books
8. I haven't read a book for fun in ages
9. I have ecclectic taste in music
10. I have been known to stalk people on livejournal

11. because i'm a lurker in fandoms
12. Fandom is a guilty pleasure
13. I read fiction of all pairings (het/guy slash/ girl slash) as long as the characters are well developed
14. I don't tell people a lot of things about me
15. When I slack, it's usually because I'm afraid of failing
16. I'm always afraid of failing
17. I love my denshi jisho
18. I had lunch with some random people today
19. I'm not good at conversation unless it falls into one of these two categories: Silly/hyper, philosophical/serious
20. Pineapple Pocky is amazing

21. I don't take enough pictures
22. I don't put enough into relationships that matter
23. I put too much into relationships that are less healthy
24. I really don't think there are one hundred interesting things to fill this
25. Sometimes, I define myself by my studies
26. Sometimes, I don't think its worth it
27. I worry about what that means for the value of my life up 'til now
28. I love dancing with a partner
29. I am a klutz
30. I wish I was good at kendo

31. My favorite memories are of random non-important meetings/talks with friends
32. I should instigate those more often
33. I miss playing the piano
34. I miss marching band
35. I want to be massively popular because it would confirm something for my self worth
36. But I'd rather just have my amazing close/smaller group of friends
37. I'm bad at letting people in, even when I want to
38. When I was 6, I ate Splinters Pizzas and Miracle Whip, American Cheese, and Pickle Sandwiches for like a whole year
39. I still remember Georgia
40. I didn't panic when I almost drowned

41. Sometimes I want to have the crap beaten out of me, to prove to myself that I could survive it
42. I think that's terrible
43. I love Terry Pratchet
44. I have only read the first Harry Potter book.
45. I can't afford another addiction
46. I have a very addictive personality
47. I really do think everyone is better than me, because everyone's flaws are ok except my own
48. I'm kinda happy I feel that way
49. I don't think I want to be flawless
50. I try either too much or not enough

51. I'm often away from the moment
52. Michaelangelo was my favorite ninja turtle
53. I miss my (guy) friends from 4th grade
54. I misconstrued alot of the situations in 4th grade. It's not fourth grade anymore and I still can't read people.
55. My only regrets come from not being closer to people
56. I don't know how to remedy that
57. I like guys with dark hair/ light eyes or asian men, less on the burly and more on the 'cute' side
58. I hate telling people what kinds of people I like
59. I don't think that precludes me from falling in love with a woman
60. I wonder what you'll think of me when you read that

61. I think of Jesus more as a Guru than a Savior
62. That doesn't mean I don't think his teachings can be saving
63. I miss my Dzedo
64. I don't think it's hit me that he's gone
65. I am a cat person
66. I thought I was so cool when I could ride the bus
67. I love snow
68. I use rules and roles to give me meaning
69. Screw the rules and roles
70. Bunnies are cute

71. I love the Care Bears, Rainbow Brite, and Avenue Q
72. I'm majoring in Japanese, minoring in French, and the only language I can really speak is English
73. I am a L'Arc-en-Ciel/ Hyde and Tetsu fangirl at heart
74. I've tried to be an author many times and failed
75. I always disappoint myself
76. I'm ok with that
77. There are lots of songs I should know that I don't
78. I love sing a longs
79. I like the taste of alcohol, but I never want to get drunk
80. I wish I knew what it was about me that makes people assume I'm close-minded

81. I wish I had the confidence to get drunk
82. I wish I had the confidence to make out with someone just once
83. I think it's also a trust issue
84. There were no sparks to my first kiss
85. I love mexican food
86. I love fruit, especially watermelons and kiwis and pineapples
87. I love picking blueberries
88. I went clubbing and I still don't feel mature or sexy
89. I feel the same as I did in 6th grade. I'm 21.
90. I think Japanese cell phones are amazing

91. in 8th grade, I had more friends on the internet than real life
92. I miss those internet friends
93. Sometimes, I RP a bad guy. I often feel guilty about all the evil shit I do.
94. I love that one series by Lloyd Alexander
95. I don't know what I want to do with my life
96. I used to hate makeup and shoes, but now I wish I'd paid a bit more attention
97. I deny myself a lot of things
98. I realize that I have put almost no random, amusing, or non-serious revelations on this list
99. my favorite color is "the rainbow"
100. I like being alone, but I need people. I'm learning to like that too.

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

Wow! It's okay not to know what you want to do with your life, most people don't ultimately end up in the career they thought they wanted. Don't analyze your life too much, just enjoy the moments. You do have an amazingly humorous side, even if you don't see it. Your friends have noticed. Yes, people do read your journal.

[(Anonymous)]

Wow, that was a pretty big insight into who you are, and I thoroughly enjoyed reading it. I think you're an amazing person, regardless of any faults or failings you have or think you might have, as everyone has those; so you should think better of yourself because I know a lot of people who do. You rock!

[tenbun.livejournal.com]

Haha. Yes. I'm so awesome ya'll can't even own up to knowing me, anonymouses! :P


but I loves ya anyway ^_^


And yes, I whine to this thing too much, if you haven't figured it out yet.