100 Random THings about Me.

So, I think this is a cool idea, but it's not quite random b/c I've been wanting to do it for a week and have been putting it off. I never update this journal, so I don't think anyone will read this. I don't know if this is disappointing.

1. I am not a very random person
2. I try very hard to be, though
3. I think I get stuck in personality roles
4. I'd rather be happy than safe
5. I tend to pick 'safe' anyway
6. Sometimes I want some huge crazy shit to happen in my life so it will become interesting
7. I like books
8. I haven't read a book for fun in ages
9. I have ecclectic taste in music
10. I have been known to stalk people on livejournal

11. because i'm a lurker in fandoms
12. Fandom is a guilty pleasure
13. I read fiction of all pairings (het/guy slash/ girl slash) as long as the characters are well developed
14. I don't tell people a lot of things about me
15. When I slack, it's usually because I'm afraid of failing
16. I'm always afraid of failing
17. I love my denshi jisho
18. I had lunch with some random people today
19. I'm not good at conversation unless it falls into one of these two categories: Silly/hyper, philosophical/serious
20. Pineapple Pocky is amazing

21. I don't take enough pictures
22. I don't put enough into relationships that matter
23. I put too much into relationships that are less healthy
24. I really don't think there are one hundred interesting things to fill this
25. Sometimes, I define myself by my studies
26. Sometimes, I don't think its worth it
27. I worry about what that means for the value of my life up 'til now
28. I love dancing with a partner
29. I am a klutz
30. I wish I was good at kendo

31. My favorite memories are of random non-important meetings/talks with friends
32. I should instigate those more often
33. I miss playing the piano
34. I miss marching band
35. I want to be massively popular because it would confirm something for my self worth
36. But I'd rather just have my amazing close/smaller group of friends
37. I'm bad at letting people in, even when I want to
38. When I was 6, I ate Splinters Pizzas and Miracle Whip, American Cheese, and Pickle Sandwiches for like a whole year
39. I still remember Georgia
40. I didn't panic when I almost drowned

41. Sometimes I want to have the crap beaten out of me, to prove to myself that I could survive it
42. I think that's terrible
43. I love Terry Pratchet
44. I have only read the first Harry Potter book.
45. I can't afford another addiction
46. I have a very addictive personality
47. I really do think everyone is better than me, because everyone's flaws are ok except my own
48. I'm kinda happy I feel that way
49. I don't think I want to be flawless
50. I try either too much or not enough

51. I'm often away from the moment
52. Michaelangelo was my favorite ninja turtle
53. I miss my (guy) friends from 4th grade
54. I misconstrued alot of the situations in 4th grade. It's not fourth grade anymore and I still can't read people.
55. My only regrets come from not being closer to people
56. I don't know how to remedy that
57. I like guys with dark hair/ light eyes or asian men, less on the burly and more on the 'cute' side
58. I hate telling people what kinds of people I like
59. I don't think that precludes me from falling in love with a woman
60. I wonder what you'll think of me when you read that

61. I think of Jesus more as a Guru than a Savior
62. That doesn't mean I don't think his teachings can be saving
63. I miss my Dzedo
64. I don't think it's hit me that he's gone
65. I am a cat person
66. I thought I was so cool when I could ride the bus
67. I love snow
68. I use rules and roles to give me meaning
69. Screw the rules and roles
70. Bunnies are cute

71. I love the Care Bears, Rainbow Brite, and Avenue Q
72. I'm majoring in Japanese, minoring in French, and the only language I can really speak is English
73. I am a L'Arc-en-Ciel/ Hyde and Tetsu fangirl at heart
74. I've tried to be an author many times and failed
75. I always disappoint myself
76. I'm ok with that
77. There are lots of songs I should know that I don't
78. I love sing a longs
79. I like the taste of alcohol, but I never want to get drunk
80. I wish I knew what it was about me that makes people assume I'm close-minded

81. I wish I had the confidence to get drunk
82. I wish I had the confidence to make out with someone just once
83. I think it's also a trust issue
84. There were no sparks to my first kiss
85. I love mexican food
86. I love fruit, especially watermelons and kiwis and pineapples
87. I love picking blueberries
88. I went clubbing and I still don't feel mature or sexy
89. I feel the same as I did in 6th grade. I'm 21.
90. I think Japanese cell phones are amazing

91. in 8th grade, I had more friends on the internet than real life
92. I miss those internet friends
93. Sometimes, I RP a bad guy. I often feel guilty about all the evil shit I do.
94. I love that one series by Lloyd Alexander
95. I don't know what I want to do with my life
96. I used to hate makeup and shoes, but now I wish I'd paid a bit more attention
97. I deny myself a lot of things
98. I realize that I have put almost no random, amusing, or non-serious revelations on this list
99. my favorite color is "the rainbow"
100. I like being alone, but I need people. I'm learning to like that too.